Insecurities

Sometimes we doubt ourselves.

Am I cut out for this. Am I brilliant enough. Am I talented enough. Do I have what it takes. Why am I so farking tired all the time.

A mentor said to me: "I am certain you are capable of better"

A fellow litigator and dear friend said to me: "tenacity is the most important attribute of a litigator, not how smart the person is. the ability to be organised and analyse things, and a certain gumption to stay on course even when the odds are against you. strength of character."

A doctor and confidante said to me: "your health is important"


At 2 a.m. not knowing the answers to the multitude of issues - No one said it was going to be easy, but roll over and die i will NOT.

Defiance

Over the weekend i read some articles in various magazines about chasing dreams, entrepreneurs quitting their lawyering/finance/corporate life to pursue what they feel strongly in life. I thought to myself, what happened for my passion for lomography, my obsession with the aviation industry, my love for music? Smothered. Work and family/friends have become so all-consuming that some days (or rather, early mornings after midnight) the only thing I look forward to is the bed I sleep in. Yes, everything is a choice, and I chose many moons ago to do this, but time and again I have to remind myself why I am here doing this when i can be anywhere else in the world doing what I love. No grudges, just an undeniable need to justify, mostly to myself, that this is worth it.